My first blog ever, Expressional Constipation had an interesting effect on the whole backed-up situation I have going on. I felt good about it, glad to get it out, hoped someone would read, and then excited to get a bunch of hits and comments from others who seem to get what I’m talking about.
I am so appreciative to everyone who took the time to read and especially those who commented, thank you! But something weird happened. Everyone had good things, nice things to say about what I had written. It was amazing to hear that people liked reading about my Expressional Constipation, but I wondered if everyone was being honest with me, or just being nice… Because what I’d written wasn’t much of anything, really.
I’ve been here before, but I had forgotten the signs until just now. About six years ago, I decided that it was time to develop my own POV for the first time. I just stopped caring what anyone else thought (realizing I’d given what others thought about me way more clout than what I thought about me) completely. I just turned that dial way down so I could start making my own opinions and ideas for myself. I developed my own style and character then, and it has served me well until now that I realize I don’t know where I stand on allowing the opinions of others back in, or whose to trust.
Going public with my Expressional Constipation makes me see I have become very isolated because I am still dealing with others who don’t understand why I made the change for myself and who I have become.
Now, it seems the next part of the evacuation process is to allow others back in again, new people. The response from Expressional Constipation proves to me that there are people who understand why and what I’m talking about and I’m excited to connect with you as I move beyond this blockage.
Thank you for you kind words and support. Please feel free to peacefully comment below; anything else will be deleted.